{on getting past a roadblock}

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hi.

this post is coming from under a proverbial boulder that the devil has thrown on – not at – but ON me. smack dab on my head.

here is the good part – the devil can knock me down but he can’t throw me out of the ring.

january was one hell of a month yall.

for starters i had to come to terms with the fact that all these plans i had set for myself to reopen shop on january 16th just weren’t possible. and sitting down and realizing that felt good and bad all at the same time.

there is something to be said for knowing your limits and not over-burdening yourself and i feel like i have realized some of those limits this year.

there is also that lingering “you can’t do this – what are you thinking??” lurking in the back of my mind. that was the devil throwing a pebble at my head and trying to knock me off course. i didn’t listen to him and just kept pushing on.

so since the pebble didn’t sway me – the devil tried a bigger rock.

next up. on a totally mundane and normal monday morning i had a meeting with my boss (who is the owner of the company i work for). and out of nowhere i got a raise + promotion. remember when i complained about how much i hated my job? let’s just say that it was like he read that blog post and came up with an offer that would turn my entire mind around.

i am now almost (almost!) too busy at work to blog and keep up a successful online presence. instead of being overwhelmed and stressed i am just doing one thing at a time. (thanks cassie!). i’m doing what i can, when i can. i’m just going to have to make a new schedule to work from and make it happen.

there is something about the devil yall – he is a persistent little bugger.

the rock didn’t knock me out. so he thought he could get me by throwing a trip line across my path.

turns out that for most of the items that i am going to make i have to be licensed through either the college or the collegiate licensing company. hehe – NOT cheap or timely. but i have amazing friends and family who believe in me and encourage me to chase after my dreams and help me cut that little trip line right out of my path.

tttttthhhhhpppp :}
take that devil.

but he wasn’t through. i finally had everything in order and ready to go.

and the devil found a boulder and rolled it off the side of a cliff to try and stop me. and it kind of sort of landed on my head.

my computer totally crashed. like. gone forever. no hard drive left. nothing.

thank the good Lord above though – i had gone through my computer about a month ago and backed almost EVERYTHING up. and i mean about 90% of the pictures, music and files on my computer are on this hard drive. i also had the foresight to save everything shop-related to a thumbdrive. so i still have all of that.

oh thank you sweet Lord for the nudging to do that.

so i had to order a new computer. and since that is about the fourth time in the last twelve months that my computer has, what i like to call, crapped out on me, i decided to go with the big guns and get a mac.

i should receive it sometime today. which means i have approximately five days to start from scratch and have everything ready to open in the shop by wednesday, feb 1.

remember i said that come hell or high water i was reopening on feb 1.

i believe this qualifies as hell AND high water. don’t you think?

here is the important thing.

God knows your dreams and if you pray and ask for his help to achieve those dreams i fully believe that he will help you. some days i question if this is really God’s plan for me. some days i know for a fact this is what he wants me to be doing.

so when the devil shows up with his weaponry, and i start to seriously doubt that this is what God wants i have to trust that God will provide if it is so. and i have to fight off the devil (in so many forms – laziness, sleepiness, negative self-talk, and of course literally destroying my equipment) and push through.

and remember that if this is truly what i love and what i want, God will make a way for it to happen.

don’t tell God about how big the devil is in your life… tell the devil how BIG YOUR GOD IS. and then make Him smile because he is proud of you for fighting for what He has provided you with.